Tuesday, February 17, 2009

ABC Wednesday---E is for Envious Encourager of Entropy!

ABC Wednesday is hosted by Mrs. Nesbitt's Place.

Hmmm...technically that title is incorrect...but I like it anyway! Before I begin, this is the best AND simplest definition of Entropy I could find online:

The energy form of a system that relates to its internal state of disorder. High entropy levels are disordered states, low entropy levels are characteristic of ordered states.

Again, before I begin, if you are reading this, you already know my beliefs, but I have picked up a few new readers so read on if you dare. I believe in God. He, along with this belief, has gotten me through more things than I ever care to recount. I will not at any time try to convert you to my beliefs. They are simply part of my story...what makes me, Mel.

Ok...on with the post...

I, like most folks, have had several times in adulthood where I found myself wondering, "What exactly am I supposed to DO with my life?" And at most all of those times I was greeted with a neon sign from God telling me exactly what I'm supposed to do! However, one cannot grow in Christ, or spirituality, or strength, or character if all they ever get are neon signs. Eventually you're going to have to walk the walk and prove that you have faith. Do what you know and believe is right and look to the future. THAT is what this post is about.

I have been at one of those crossroads now for awhile...and I found myself praying without a solitary clue as to what I'm supposed to be doing. Folks, I *know* I'm supposed to be a mother...that's a given. But I've got myself wondering if there isn't something else I should be doing, especially financially, to help the family as well. I've put some used books up for sale on Amazon.com along with some mint condition Barbie's I've cleaned out of my collection. I've done ok, but those sales aren't anything you can anticipate or depend upon. I've also opened an etsy shop and again, while the extra money is certainly welcome it is nothing one can count on.

I was feeling particularly discouraged after viewing the successes of several of my friends in endeavors they have recently undertaken. I found myself muttering...and mumbling...and whining...and letting the green eyed monster get the best of me. Certainly not growing in character...now is it? ;) Then, He kind of smacked me in the back of the head, cleared His throat, and I got it. These successes I spoke of...in others? They were sparked by a word or two from me. Why don't you try this? Why don't you add this to your designs? Why don't you just go out with him, what will it hurt? The list goes on...it has for years. My job...what I am supposed to be doing right now, is simply to be an Encourager. No, I'm probably not going to make any money from it, but it IS what I'm supposed to be doing. Of course, as soon as I realized this I was sent someone I didn't WANT to encourage...typical eh? Building character...remember?

And so, I will continue to Encourage until I reach that next crossroad. In the meantime? Well folks, let's face it. I'm about as far away from being ready for my next big blessing as someone could get! And THAT'S where the Entropy comes in! My life currently feels like my workspace. Yeah...so cluttered I couldn't accomplish anything productive if I wanted to! While I continue being the Encourager I'm supposed to be, I'm going to get some order back into my life...and restore my balance. I've made a list of 12 things I want to accomplish in 2009...all aimed at restoring balance. I figured even I could handle one thing a month! Believe it or not, one of them is simply finding time to write once a week in my blog...another is a basic as drinking more water. A big one is clearing the clutter and I'm ready to start on that workspace. I've said it before many times, I *need* to create to find peace. Can you find peace on that table? I can't...I think it's buried under the fourth pile on the right. ::shudder:: I have no plans to create anything to sell...but I'm sure that will come later. Right now, I just want to have MY space, where I can sit and create for ME. I'm pretty certain my rewards from THAT are going to be Exponentially greater than anything monetary.


ChrisC and JonJ said...

So,if I'm in a disordered state(as I usually am-I tend to call it easily distracted)does that mean I'm entropic? Love your post,BTW.

Mel said...

Well...my husband does tell me I have the attention span of a gnat...on speed! ;) Thanks for dropping by my swirling mass of entropy!

Deslilas said...

Life needs disorder and unknown.

Janie said...

I am currently enjoying a high entropy level. If you could see my computer desk right now, it would tell that tale. However, I know I work better in an ordered environment, so I really need to clean up the mess!
Hope you find your creative niche.

photowannabe said...

I guess I feel that way sometimes too, but a good smack to the back of the head helps the situation..LOL...I like your post.

Carol said...

Good E... I encourage you to keep encouraging!

Tumblewords: said...

Great post - encouragers are so important and sometimes lacking in this world. I'd say you have a big place to be!

Carolina said...

Entropic, must remember that! Thanks.
Good luck with the clear out of your desk and head. I'm sure you will have the 'best idea ever' some day that you will A) make lots of people happy with and B) make millions of dollars with, and then you will buy the Winchester-house just for a holiday home and to play hide and seek with the girls ;-)

You can always write a book! Seriously! You could! (if you make millions please remember it was my idea ;-))

Mel said...

Deslilas...you are absolutely right...however, when all areas of your life are disorganized and unknown, life can be pretty bleak. Balance my friend...balance! ")

Janie and photowannabe...it's good to know I'm not alone...maybe we should start a support group or something. However, I fear with MY tendencies? I'd focus all of my energy on the support group and forget about clearing my clutter! ;)

Carol and Tumblewords...THANK YOU! Sometimes, what encouragers lack the most? Is encouragement from others!

Carolina...I'm so glad you stumbled upon my little corner of the web! Do come visit us at the Winchester mystery house. YOU could probably find your way around it with no problem! ;) And as for writing a book...I started a novel MANY years ago. I just pulled it out of storage in the last 3 months or so and finishing that sucker is high on my list after I have a distraction free zone to work in! No worries...I'll make sure I thank you publicly in the dedication!

Jay said...

I am in a perpetual state of disorder - it sounds so much better to call it high entropy.

I have been struggling with what I am supposed to do with my life. It's been a tapestry of this for a little while, then that for a little while. I trained as an animal nurse, I raised a family (SAHM), I did various part time jobs to bring in a little extra. I volunteered in small ways (I have just lost my PAT therapy dog), and encouraged others. So maybe that is my role too. To fill in the gaps and encourage others. Maybe my disorder is all part of the plan.

It's a nice thought.

Life with Kaishon said...

I think this is something so many people struggle with! The thing I cling to, when I am in the depths of despair, is that God loves me and he will give me a purpose that is perfect for each stage of my life.

pictureeachday said...

Yours is such an important role, and one that is not nearly recognized enough! What an insightful post.

I feel happy and proud of what I have accomplished for the stage of my life that I'm in, but I am by nature a shy, introverted person. So much of what I've done that I'm proud of and that I feel has made me who I am, I was only brave enough to try thanks to the many amazing encouragers in my life. And, the biggest encourager has definitely been my mother.. I bet it will turn out that these two important roles in your life complement each other perfectly :)

..Also, I am completely disorganized, so man can I understand where you're coming from there.

Carol said...

Life is a disorganized organization of thoughts, acts, and desires. When any two of them come together and make sense....we know it's time to get back to the drawing board, cause you know what? The 'sense' doesn't last very long!

Mel....You are delightfully human. The best kind. Ever. And I'm proud to know you. Organized or DISorganized. It's a journey we are traveling together. All of us. May you find it to be easier than hard, and happier than sad. The fragrance of the roses make it easier for us to forget the thorns. xoxoxoxox

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