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Again, before I begin, if you are reading this, you already know my beliefs, but I have picked up a few new readers so read on if you dare. I believe in God. He, along with this belief, has gotten me through more things than I ever care to recount. I will not at any time try to convert you to my beliefs. They are simply part of my story...what makes me, Mel.
Ok...on with the post...
I, like most folks, have had several times in adulthood where I found myself wondering, "What exactly am I supposed to DO with my life?" And at most all of those times I was greeted with a neon sign from God telling me exactly what I'm supposed to do! However, one cannot grow in Christ, or spirituality, or strength, or character if all they ever get are neon signs. Eventually you're going to have to walk the walk and prove that you have faith. Do what you know and believe is right and look to the future. THAT is what this post is about.
I have been at one of those crossroads now for awhile...and I found myself praying without a solitary clue as to what I'm supposed to be doing. Folks, I *know* I'm supposed to be a mother...that's a given. But I've got myself wondering if there isn't something else I should be doing, especially financially, to help the family as well. I've put some used books up for sale on Amazon.com along with some mint condition Barbie's I've cleaned out of my collection. I've done ok, but those sales aren't anything you can anticipate or depend upon. I've also opened an etsy shop and again, while the extra money is certainly welcome it is nothing one can count on.
I was feeling particularly discouraged after viewing the successes of several of my friends in endeavors they have recently undertaken. I found myself muttering...and mumbling...and whining...and letting the green eyed monster get the best of me. Certainly not growing in character...now is it? ;) Then, He kind of smacked me in the back of the head, cleared His throat, and I got it. These successes I spoke of...in others? They were sparked by a word or two from me. Why don't you try this? Why don't you add this to your designs? Why don't you just go out with him, what will it hurt? The list goes on...it has for years. My job...what I am supposed to be doing right now, is simply to be an Encourager. No, I'm probably not going to make any money from it, but it IS what I'm supposed to be doing. Of course, as soon as I realized this I was sent someone I didn't WANT to encourage...typical eh? Building character...remember?
And so, I will continue to Encourage until I reach that next crossroad. In the meantime? Well folks, let's face it. I'm about as far away from being ready for my next big blessing as someone could get! And THAT'S where the Entropy comes in! My life currently feels like my workspace. Yeah...so cluttered I couldn't accomplish anything productive if I wanted to! While I continue being the Encourager I'm supposed to be, I'm going to get some order back into my life...and restore my balance. I've made a list of 12 things I want to accomplish in 2009...all aimed at restoring balance. I figured even I could handle one thing a month! Believe it or not, one of them is simply finding time to write once a week in my blog...another is a basic as drinking more water. A big one is clearing the clutter and I'm ready to start on that workspace. I've said it before many times, I *need* to create to find peace. Can you find peace on that table? I can't...I think it's buried under the fourth pile on the right. ::shudder:: I have no plans to create anything to sell...but I'm sure that will come later. Right now, I just want to have MY space, where I can sit and create for ME. I'm pretty certain my rewards from THAT are going to be Exponentially greater than anything monetary.
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